January 13, 2008
Self Portrait Sunday for January 13, 2008
Buddy gave me over ten years of devoted affection. His health had been shaky for several months and he took a turn for the worse this week. I took this photo Friday an hour or so before I took him to be put down. I’ve been doing things to stay busy, but the sadness is overwhelming. Lancie is still watching the door for his pal to come back. My dear friend J has her own concerns right now - her son just left for boot camp after the Army committed to providing him career training and paying off his student loans - but she’s been spending time with me and Lance to help shore us up. We’ll get through this together somehow and go back to remembering our Buddy for the joy he brought us.
Join us by posting your own self portrait and putting your link in the comments over at Digi-Cass. The others won’t carry an undertone of sadness, I promise. I’m off to visit them because they always cheer me up.
[tags]meme, photos, self portraits[/tags]
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January 13th, 2008 at 12:38 pm, Karen Says:
I am so sorry Skeet. It is so hard but he feels better and is running around in heaven. Hugs for you. Tell J that we sure appreciate what her son is doing for our country. I will keep him in my prayers.
January 13th, 2008 at 12:46 pm, Charlotte Says:
Aww.. I’m so sorry to hear that. But I’m sure he’s feeling so much better now and I’m sure he wouldn’t want you to feel so sad. **HUGS**
January 13th, 2008 at 1:12 pm, skeet Says:
Mahalo, Karen.I know he’s better off and that’s what’s getting me by right now.
J is very proud of her son, but stressed, too, as most parents would be. Somthing else to get through with help from friends, hmmm?
January 13th, 2008 at 1:16 pm, skeet Says:
Mahalo, Charlotte. You’re right, of course - Buddy loved to make me laugh. I’m feeling a little more in control today than I did yesterday - just need more time to pass, I guess.
January 13th, 2008 at 1:17 pm, bluepaintred Says:
oh skeet, Im SO sorry!
January 13th, 2008 at 2:21 pm, jo Says:
That is one of the hardest things you will every have to do, but there are few other things we can do for another suffering creature that shows the depth of our love and caring. To love, mercy and humanity, Bless
January 13th, 2008 at 3:47 pm, Lynne Says:
I’m so sorry to hear that Skeet. Losing a pet is the same as losing a best friend and family member. (((hugs)))
January 13th, 2008 at 4:01 pm, corrin Says:
That’s a great photo of you and Buddy that you can keep around to remember your time together.
We’ll be thinking about you and Lance!
January 13th, 2008 at 5:06 pm, Misty Dawn Says:
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) My heart goes out to you, my friend. I’m so sorry you are going through this!
January 13th, 2008 at 5:22 pm, alli Says:
I am soooo sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you. It is a great picture, but I am just so sad too.
January 13th, 2008 at 5:24 pm, Katie Says:
Damn, Skeet. We had to make the same call last week with our Flicka. Their moving on just leaves such a painful void in our lives, and you’re right, the sadness is just overwhelming right now. Take care.
January 13th, 2008 at 10:23 pm, wendi Says:
I saw your intro on Hawaii Threads and it took me here. I am very sad about your dog. Not much can be said to help you feel better, just know that your cyber and in-person frenz send love, love, and more love.
This has happened to my parents with three dogs and with each one I never knew what to say. I am happy for your time with Buddy.
January 14th, 2008 at 2:16 am, allysther Says:
Sweetie I am so sorry to read this news. I know that there is nothing I can say to make it better. Please know that you are loved and that there are people out here who understand and who care about you.
Much love.
January 14th, 2008 at 2:19 am, Jennifer Says:
Oh Skeet, I’m so sorry. My heart hurts for you today, darling.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:12 am, skeet Says:
Mahalo, bluepaintred. It means a lot to know that so many care.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:19 am, skeet Says:
Mahalo, Jo. Yes, one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I want to go back and undo, but I know that even if I could I wouldn’t. Buddy needed to be released.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:21 am, skeet Says:
Mahalo, Lynn. You’re correct - Buddy was as precious to me as the dearest friend or family.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:23 am, skeet Says:
Mahalo, Corrin. I haven’t printed the photo yet, but I already have a frame picked out. I’ll put it somewhere prominent in my home when I can look at it with joy instead of sadness.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:24 am, skeet Says:
Mahalo, Misty Dawn. It helps to know that so many people understand.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:25 am, skeet Says:
Mahalo, Alli. I really appreciate the loving support.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:39 am, skeet Says:
Oh, my dear Katie. I’m so sorry for your own loss. “Painful void” is exactly the right description. There’s a hole in the universe - in my home, my life, my heart - in a size and shape that only Buddy can fill, and another in your own world that perfectly fits your Flicka. I think eventually those spaces will refill with the sweet memories, once the sharp edge of sadness has had time to diminish. Comfort to you, my friend, and a wish for the vibrant and joyful remembrances to nudge us both away from grief.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:41 am, skeet Says:
Mahalo, Wendi. Yes, there is great comfort in the words and thoughts of friends, whether old or new.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:45 am, skeet Says:
Mahalo, sweet Allysther. The loving concern with which you and others have responded is a warm blanket against the chill world that’s trying to engulf me. Love to you and your sweet men, my friend.
January 14th, 2008 at 10:47 am, skeet Says:
Mahalo, sweet Jennifer. Your words do bring comfort. It’s good to know that friends know and understand.
January 14th, 2008 at 11:15 am, Whim Says:
Another great portrait with Buddy.
January 15th, 2008 at 5:09 pm, skeet Says:
Mahalo Whim. I’m glad it came out so well since it’s the last I’ll have of him.
January 15th, 2008 at 6:25 pm, Whim Says:
I’m glad your last moments were good ones. My cousin’s cat passed away at the vet last week before he could get there in time. It killed him not to be there for her when she passed.
January 19th, 2008 at 11:46 pm, hyphen8 Says:
Oh, no. It doesn’t matter that you knew it would come eventually; when it does there’s a big hole in your heart and it just *hurts*. I’m so sad for you.
Take care of yourself, hang in there, and please accept a virtual hug until next week when we can give you real ones..
February 9th, 2008 at 5:07 pm, Muhd Imran Says:
That is a beautiful photo of Buddy and you. What a blessing to have a wonderful ten years with him. Just warms the heart.
I’m so sorry Buddy has to go, but I think he no longer felt the pain he had in his last days. He was lucky to have you, Skeet.
Lance is for you now as you are for him. Beautiful post.
February 9th, 2008 at 5:18 pm, skeet Says:
Mahalo, Imran. I’ve moved away from the overwhelming sadness now, but still miss my Buddy a lot. Yes, it’s better for him - I would not have wanted to selfishly keep him when his time came.
Lance is a true joy and comfort!